God felt far away, as I believed in order to be loved by him I had to be perfect.
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God was using those around me as instruments of his love for me. I just had to let myself be loved.
I arrogantly thought that because I had transformed, the world around me did as well.
The effort of moving towards the light has been a struggle lately in my journey towards forgiveness and healing.
And yet, despite the gratitude I have experienced with each new or deepened grace, I have felt an
underlying restlessness within me—an ache to be “further along” in life or to have finally
“arrived.”
As I pray for a deeper connection with God, I find His response to my desire oddly intertwined with a deeper connection to my “wounded” self.