REFLECTING GRACE
“In the tender compassion of our God
the dawn from on high shall break upon us,
to shine on those who dwell in darkness and the shadow of death,
and to guide our feet into the way of peace.” - Luke 1:78-79
Is it truly Christmas tomorrow? More than before, this season felt like it crept up on me. In the midst of all the busy-ness, I didn’t even make time to get a tree. As Omicron spreads, it also leaves me wondering how much or not we should be celebrating. Yet as I reflect on this, I notice these are all external. Who is to say that should discount the deeper celebration within?
Jesus reminds me that yes, Christmas is true, and that there is a “way of peace” always in the midst of it. Today’s readings mention rest and saving from our enemies, lines that I cannot read without some mild waterworks. Earlier this year I experienced a series of betrayals and humiliations, not to mention significant related health issues, from my prior job that was unlike anything I had ever experienced in my life personally or professionally. It was more difficult than the major surgery I had a decade ago. A place that I loved literally became a Garden of Gethsemane for me, and it became clear that it was time to move on. I am deeply grateful for moments of prayer, discernment, and people close to me who could handle walking with and being with me through it.
Six months later now, I see how God’s “tender compassion” has brought me to a new unfolding chapter and leaves me with glimpses of awe. The literal nightmares have subsided, and experience has shown me how this mysterious way always leads to becoming more of who I am in God’s grace. A way that always reminds me that the only way out is through, and in that going through, love and grace abound in ways that interestingly would not have happened otherwise.
Jesus, thank you for your unending and enduring love. Please help us to be ever more fully present to the gift of your presence in our lives this Christmas and always.
Quyen Ngo